Current Mood: Reflective

Alright, it is much later then I wanted it to be while I’m writing this.  I wanted to be in bed about 10, but I wanted to catch up on a few things plus I wanted to write an entry.

It was a rough day for Torn.  He didn’t sleep worth a damn last night and then had to go to the doctor for his foot.  Just like we thought, he needs surgery.  =(  The only good thing about it is that it may help get a jump start on the healing of it.

But it ended ok for him because I came home to him telling me about the great conversation he had with his folks.  He hasn’t talked to them in a while so it was great.

We had no clue what to have for dinner so we finally went out and use the Outback gift card my folks sent us.  =)  Yeah, I over did it…….but I love that place.

I got through the day.  With it being the day that we lost Aurora, it was good that I worked.  I know it has been a year and it shouldn’t hurt so much, but what can I say I’m a sap.  What is weird is that we lost Randi 3 years ago, but with the lost of Aurora I even feel Randi’s lost even more.

I did lose it once, it sneak up on me.  I didn’t help that we brought back our left overs from Outback in their paper bag and made me think of how much Aurora loved jumping into them. Then you can bat at her through the top of it and she would bat right back with her clawless paws.  Torn would be meanie and hang the bag on a door knob or something while she was in it…….lol

Once we get settled in Portland, we have to get another cat that is feisty as both Randi & Aurora was because I really miss it.  Plus Alexis & Reggie are a little wacky for cats……….so we need a “normal” cat, if there is such a thing……..

Current Mood: Sleepy

This morning was chilly as hell, but we didn’t get the frost.  =)  But I was able to wear my fully length leather jacket to work…….grin
I didn’t sleep worth a damn last night.  I think it was a combo of too much on my mind and I made the mistake of having tea that I thought of decaf before bed…….oops.  So I’ll make that one in the morning and go out looking for one that I like for the evening that won’t keep me up.

I didn’t get much done at work as I would’ve like, but still got a few things accomplished.  The changes are starting to happen……..which isn’t bad, just hard to adjust to it.  My boss was suppose to finish out this week before heading to her new location, but today pretty much ended up being her last. =(  It took us several months to get to a good working point, so I’m going to miss her.

When I got home, Torn had started to address some of the issues that we needed to take care of.  I’m relieved that he started it, so we sat down and took care of it together.  I just hope that helps all of us to get over this rough spot that every relationship goes through, whether it is personal or business and this one is a combo.

He then put me to work on going over some other work, which makes me feel good in that we are moving forward and taking care of business.  But unfortunately my messages will have to wait until tomorrow night.  So that is my goal.  =)

Torn sees the foot doctor tomorrow, I have a bad feeling that he needs surgery.  =(  Then I have to start calling around to see what my insurance will cover and stuff…..gggrrr  I’m so not looking forward to that part.

Since I’m working a lot of early shifts this week, it’s time to hit the hay.  =)

Current Mood: Chilling

We just done watching the movie called “An Unfinished Life” with Morgan Freeman, Robert Redford, Jennifer Lopez and a young promising actress Becca Gardner. It was a great quality movie. If you love a good story line with good acting, check it out.

It has gotten chilly here for Florida. It is about 42 now and clear, which means that it will get colder. We are under a frost adversary so we brought the plants in.

I really didn’t get as much done today like I thought I would. For one, I got a late start since I didn’t get to bed as early as I wanted to. I did get lawn mowed and then attacked the litters.

After lunch I went and got my nails done. Now my nails take a lot longer then most women, mainly because I now get a pedicure along with my nails, but it is also because I get designs. Well the last couple of designs have taken even longer then normal because of my teams. Yes, I did get my nails done in both Bears & Colts colors……every other nail to be exact………..grin

Torn’s Harrison Colts jersey arrived today, so we are all set for the big game. Me and my Manning and Torn and his Harrison…………..now I just need to get a picture of us both in them…….grin

I am disappointed in myself, I didn’t get any messages done, didn’t edit any pictures and I didn’t get my response done for issues that came up. I feel bad about that, a response is deserved…..gggrrr I just hate having to argue my point and be logically about it when I don’t think my side will be seen or understood, because I’m just plain disappointed in the whole thing and how it has evolved. You know how it is, there is 3 sides to every story.

Well, now I need to put away the laundry that threw on the bed and get ready to crawl into it since I have to work in the morning. Yep, today was pretty much wasted……..oh well.

Current Mood: Go Colts!

You want to understand how I feel about my Bears and my Colts, this article explains it pretty well : Illinois-Indiana fan loyalties divided

Makes it harder that my family is from the Chicago area, even though my immediate family is now closer to the Danville area. But being a fan of the Colts started at the same time as the Bears when we moved back to the states about 40 miles north of Baltimore in ‘80.  I want my Colts to win, but it won’t upset me terribly if the Bears won.

Current Mood: Hidding from the World

I really don’t want to go to work.  I hate working the late shift on the weekend.  I hope for an easy evening….keep your fingers crossed.

The good thing is that I have Monday off.  So I hope that we get things back on track then, because this is getting old and not getting us anywhere.  I hate having my wheels spinning and nothing moving.

I did actually get a few things done this morning.  I attacked the dishes, laundry and did a quick vacuum so the worst of it is up.

I can’t wait for next weekend.  I have it off!  Yes, and we have the SuperBowl.  Last year I got stuck working it, and there is no way in hell that I am this year, especially with 2 teams that I love.

I’m horrible, I have 2 birthday cards sitting on my desk, just waiting for me to send them out and I have yet to take them out of the bag.  One was late to begin with but the 2nd one…………well, I could’ve had it out on time but lost track of it.

I’m glad I’m working Wednesday; it would 1 year that we lost Aurora.  I need something to keep my mind off of it, although it is already sneaking in.

I guess I better motivate myself to finish getting ready for work…….fun, fun…..

Current Mood: Reflective

Well, for about 3-4 days in a row I didn’t have my morning coughing fits.  That was cool, but I did sleep longer then normal.  The only thing I can think of it that I’m still fighting the ickys.  I still have a few twinges but still doing so much better.

Today was my day off, didn’t do too much.  We did take the truck in for an oil change and a go over.  Stopped by the camera shop to check out a few things, which was a great reason to stop by the Japanese steakhouse that is located near by………grin  We love that place and haven’t been there in a while.

It has gotten chilly down here.  We actually had to turn on the heat yesterday.  We have it on now set really low.

I did have time to set up laptop on the patio and got my messages caught up.

I have my mind full of stuff that I can’t throw out here……it is driving me nuts.

I have been comparing the 3 different models of the Olympus stylus.  There are barely any real differences that matter to me.  So if I get the 740, I can at least get it in blue…………grin  I’m probably going to get it in the next few weeks.  I’m so looking forward to it. =)

Torn is going to order our new light set either Monday or Tuesday.  I really hope that it helps with our shots. It gets stressful when things don’t go the way you want them to.  And with the having a new camera, a new camcorder and lights, we are making great progress.  Torn also booked us a get away in a few weeks.  I’m so looking forward to it.

Now if I can just get myself motivated to get some work done.

Current Mood: Reflective

I’m exhausted. I stayed up long enough to watch the State of the Union and put away the laundry, even though I should’ve been in bed by that time. But I still would have gotten some decent sleep. Instead I was awake for 2 hours coughing. =( The good news is that I didn’t have my coughing fit this morning, just an occasional one through out the day.

The last few days my life as gotten decidedly more complicated, in so many ways. I hate complications………

One of the ways, I can’t really discuss; I just want everything to be resolved, I care and like the people who are involved which makes the situation even harder. It doesn’t help that I have the nature that wants to mediate, even when I’m upset.

The other complication, ironically, I can only discuss here.

I was given a bombshell from my boss and no one in the office knows yet. (Which is why I can’t post this anywhere else) She has been given a new location that hasn’t even opened yet. Our office is one of the small offices that is used as a training ground. I was suspecting something was up, they move people around at this time of year. I’m not happy to see her go. =( But I’m happy for her, she has done a great job here and helped get our office where we both wanted it to be.

But what I didn’t expect that even though they she knows that we are planning on moving that she argued on my behalf to give me this location until I move. That was so cool and meant a lot to me. In fact that is why our area supervisor was quizzing me on how sure are we on moving. I think if we weren’t moving I would’ve taken over this office.

Torn is upset that I told work about our moving because I could’ve gotten a promotion and more money out of it. But I’ve always been upfront about my plans and I don’t I really want the promotion. Not at this point in my life anyway.
With the irregular schedule, I’m not able to do half the stuff I use it and if I took a promotion it would be even worst, more stress and more hours. I really want to do more of the site work and evolve in that, I have no idea where to begin or in what, I just know that I have that idea in my head. My boss’ transferring to my office last year made me realize that about myself after we butted heads so badly.

But there may be another opportunity for me, if I’m willing to go through the headaches. Our area supervisor is playing around with the idea of moving the assistants around from the offices because those locations tend to get stale and closed off to new people and ideas. I love my location, just over 3 miles from home. But it speaks how highly I’m thought of if they want to me move to a problem office to try and stir things up. Torn really doesn’t want me driving that far, which wouldn’t be bad if the traffic wasn’t so horrible. But if I can get a raise out of it and it would look great on my resume when it comes to references.

My boss feels that I can really make a difference by just putting my head down and tackling my job regardless of the issues that will come up with that office boss. I’ve worked with her before because I started at that location and it was ok, that office boss gave me the impression that she was hiding a lazy streak. My current boss feels that it would showcase my strengths better and expose the problems with that location’s office boss, which will either shape her up or move her out. Which with that kind of ego enforcement, can easily go to my head……..grin

It also helps that if my current company ever moves out to the Portland area, that they would love to have me. This company is big on retaining people and promoting from within.

I’m also worrying about my co-workers, who over time have come depend on me for their stress relief and venting board. I love laughter and love making people laugh. I feel that laughter helps starves off the heart attacks that stress can cause. Several of my people have given indication that they don’t know if they would stick around if I transferred.

At the same time, I would love to be able to help the office manager that will be coming into my current location.

There is so much to think about, but I guess I shouldn’t stress it too much. My area supervisor hasn’t approached me yet. But my boss will be announcing her transfer at our office meeting Sunday, which explains why she wanted me to bring my camera.

Current Mood: Esctatic

Senior Sex Symbols Steal the Screen

“There’s certainly a sexiness and an attractiveness in being comfortable in your skin — the skin that’s still in the same region of your body as it was when you started out,” Collis said.

By not overhauling their time-worn facades, the “silver foxes” retain the features that made them appealing in the first place. They stand out from the pack of aging celebrities desperate to look younger.

***I love this! I love seeing that older women are no longer being view as just dowdy old ladies with a hundred cats. They are finally acknowledging that you don’t have to be some barely legal girl (they aren’t women) to be sexy.

Current Mood: Exhausted

After being able to sleep most of the week since I’ve been sick with the help of meds, it was disappointing to have a restless night last night when I really needed it.  I had to be in by 6am.  Which is no big deal if I got my rest like I was suppose to.

I still had my coughing fits this morning, the good news is that it wasn’t as bad.

I still had a productive day at work.  So I was pleased.  My boss is back from vacation tomorrow, thankfully.  It wasn’t bad, but it is nice to have another manager and where I don’t have worry about everything so much.

We watched our poor Saints lose to the Bears.  I love my Bears, but it was still a heartbreaker to see Drew lose.  We are watching the Colts & the Patriots, while I add a few more CDs to my iTunes.  I so hope the Colts pull it off……fingers crossed.

I was going to start to organize my playlists, but too damn tired to look at it……..lol  I did reset my iPod last night and let it re-add the new set up over night.  I got about 11,000 songs on and still have about 23gb left.  So not too bad.

Torn brought our tickets for our trips.  I’m heading to Indiana and him on to Portland in April.

Current Mood: Sickly

I”m still here, barely………..lol Actually, better then I have been but still feel crappy. My throat has been sore and with me being sick, I go for hot teas and hot, soupy type meals………like creamy pot pies, soups, raviolis & sauces. It just feel good on my throat and in my tummy, hell I even been having hot water in the morning. I did end up having a piece of hot apple pie last night.

I was able to cut out of work just a little bit early. I went to the store and picked up some more meds & Torn a new razor.

Torn was nice enough and got all my stuff moved over to my external while I was at work. I need to go through some stuff and ftp what I’m missing from our servers. Took me a bit, but figured out (I think) how to use my library from the external instead of taking up space from laptop. Then I’m going to reset my ipod and reconnect with everything, because right now I have doubles.

I’m looking at the files and it is so annoying how Itunes messed up all the organization that Torn did. Just because an artist does a duet, instead of leaving it in the main artist folder, it gives it another folder even if it is only one song.  I guess I’ll be doing some reorganization while watching the games tomorrow.