I will not have email or internet access for the next 2 weeks. So I will not be able to update as much as I like. =(

Chat with you later.

Peace
Toni

This may be my last post for the next few weeks. I don’t know If I’ll get internet access during that time. So everyone have a good one. =)

Alright……here are some articles that I hope will motivate people who do not vote to do it. There is so much riding on this election I can’t even start. We need to get this administration out THIS YEAR, not for years from now. They have done enough damage.

Condom Wars “New guidelines from Bush’s Centers for Disease Control gut HIV-prevention education, and cause outrage and anguish among leaders in the AIDS community.”
***WTF?!?! Avoiding sex is the only sure way of not getting AIDS without blood contact, but that is the so unrealistic & stupid. CONDOMS!!! CONDOMS!!!! Needs to be taught. I swear they are trying to push us back into the dark ages. What the hell is wrong with this people?!!? Is their way the only way…..their extreme Christian bible thumping should rule over all of us……..they can bite me!!

Court ready to rule on Net porn
***Of course……they do have to attack the 1st Amendment…..we can’t have that.

Keeping Tabs on George W. Bush
***He has a “great” record with our environment. At this rate we won’t have anything left for our kids much less our grandkids…. =(

‘Fahrenheit 9/11′ Sets Documentary Record
***Now I want to see this, but I know we need to take it with a grain of salt. I’m hoping that this really raises awareness & rallies people to vote & take our country back from the right wing.

Sorry but this adminstration really pisses me off.

Why does everything feel like it piles up at once? It is so tiring. I just don�t know. I know I haven�t been able to put it all through my mind�.but here goes.

We were planning on taking off for a few weeks, but my mom is having woman�s surgery on July 7th��so I was going to head back early & watch the kids while she�s in the hospital.

Now with my grandma�s funeral, Torn has take off with out with me (no way out of it). =( I was going to go with the first few days & then change my flight to come back early��but Torn wasn�t having any of it. Feels it would be too much for me. I know he hates that he can�t be there with me as it is.

We haven�t been separated for any real length of time in a long time & I�m so not looking forwarded to it. When it was just coming back early no problem��.I knew watching the kids & the family site thing will keep me occupied. But now, it�s going to be about 2 weeks! I don�t like not being in bed next to Torn�..hopefully the kids will wear me down.

The wake/funeral is Wed/Thurs. An aunt & uncle are out of the country & the family waited a few days before deciding. They thought they would be back by this past Saturday, but found out they aren�t due back until next weekend. My parents, who at first thought they were back this past weekend, are upset that they aren�t waiting for them.

The family doesn�t want �to go through it again���.go through what?! Waiting a week wouldn�t have been that big of deal & honestly, I have to admit it would�ve made my life a hell lot easier. But what really upsets me is my uncle & aunt won�t be there. 7 of grandma�s kids will be there (well dad is iffy, cuz he is pissed at the oldest 3�s decision)�..either way it is screwy.

Mom feels that we need to do what we need to do & I shouldn�t worry about it. I�m like; I�m not missing my grandma�s funeral. She was the last one of my grandparents. I have made it to all my other grandparents� services & I�m sure in hell not missing this.

I know I haven�t made the visits I wanted to make while she was with us. I don�t know if I didn�t really want to acknowledge that the end was near. I knew that at 89 she didn�t have much time, but I guess I didn�t want to acknowledge that it was about over since she is part of my earliest & best memories. Maybe it was cuz I didn�t like seeing her that way, it wasn�t the grandma of my childhood.

I feel as if I lost one of the last connections to my childhood. I remember when I spent my summers in Indiana with my mom�s folks; I would spend some of the time visiting with all the family members including my dad�s folks.

Grandpa would spend so much time in his garden, even after all the kids were out of the house, he still keep it up. Found out from grandma that they would donate a lot of it. =) The only way to spend time with him was to be in the garden with him & afterwards we would sit with them and snapped beans. =) I remember grandma being very stern about not banging on the piano�..grin�you were suppose to �worship� it & treat it with the utmost respect �.lol.

My sister & I are (I believe) the only grandkids out of 16 not raised catholic, so when we went to church with them it was so fascinating. It was such a beautiful church that you weren�t bored cause there was so much to look at & with the kneeling, standing, & sitting, the crossing of your chest you had to pay attention�.lol�.no choice there. =)

I think it also that she was the center of the family, a lot of my memories of her are at family gatherings�the ones you have so much fun with all your cousins, aunts & uncles�..even though only about 4-5 sets of families are there out of 9�the house would be so full of life and family history. I loved it.

Well�..those are some of my memories & I guess a slight tribute to her. =)

Peace
Toni

Grandma died today =(

Today was the day my father volunteered me to take the kids to a movie�.lol He seems to like doing that�.grin When he dropped them off, I showed them mom & dad�s wedding pics & baby pics of me and their mother. They thought that was neat.

I also showed them my violin. I�ve kind of been explaining to them that certain things of mine, mom & dad�s will pass on to them. So I wanted them to know if one of them wanted to take up the violin, that when they are ready for a full size violin that they can have mine. I showed them how to hold it, told them that it was really badly out of tune (no tuning pipe & I do not have a very good ear), and I let them try it. The 4yr old is so small, so I had her holding it as a cello�lol�.I should�ve got my camera�..but that�s me, a day late & a dollar short� =)

We went and saw Shrek 2, yes I have already saw it with Torn but figured it was the best movie for an 8, 7, & 4 yr old. Garfield just came out & I like to wait a few weeks for less people in the theatre. The kids did much better then I thought they would & they loved it. =) They would get so excited, especially the 4yr old, about something that I�d have to shush them & tell them you have to be quiet for other people.

Afterwards, we went back to my house to pick up some stuff, including my laptop. Alright�..let me start from the beginning as to why��

I have been working on the family tree/history. I can�t seem to put it down long��anyways�.lol� I just started to put it down in Word and using an outline form. I sent my mother a copy of what I have and she printed it out & made corrections & additions. =) Which is what I was hoping for. So I wanted to get together with her to clarify everything, so when I took the kids back I grabbed some pictures & my laptop�..and mom helped me fill it all out�.grin

I guess she even called her cousin a few states over for info. And she would love to have a copy of what I have so far. I�m thinking of sending everyone a copy of what I have & a self-addressed stamped envelope so they can send me any corrections & additions. I know not everyone in the family is into it, I know Torn & my dad isn�t it (they are way too much alike, lol). But I do know that there are few who would like to help & have some of the info. I�m giving myself a reasonable goal of doing that with the Christmas cards, but would love to do it sooner & then out a more complete one for the holidays. =)

Now, I�m not a big fan of my mom�s church thing, but they are extensively involved in genealogy & have connections world wide (which is great since most of my family is from Germany & Austria). So mom is going to see about getting help on the tracing & of course, the more info we have the better. So this is going to be really cool.

What I�m really enjoying about this is sharing with mom, of course she goes a mile a minute about relations��lol�..I love it, just need a chance to get it all down & in my head since I don�t know a lot of the people. Mom even gave me my grandma�s death certificate & my grandparents & great-grandma�s funeral books & cards. I think I like being able to the holder of the family history. Maybe cause I would love for one of my nieces & nephew to take an interest in it & become a holder & gather of the family story.

You know how I love history & personal family history is no different. =)

It been a long day & I need to get my booty to bed. =)

Peace
Toni

Bush Claimed Right to Waive Torture Laws

***What the hell is this man is thinking?!?! GGRRRggggrrrr….I just want to slap him for his stupidity!! How the hell does he expect our troops to be treated if captured?!? He does not think!! He is the dumbest President we have ever had!! He doesn’t give a damn about our troops & their safety……..otherwise he would’ve realized that by doing that he is ENDANGERING our troops even more?! Hello?!? Is there a light on in there?

We have to keep the higher standard. That is what makes America who we are. Yes, we have our problems and our screw ups, but we are suppose to be able to improve and then lead by example.

VOTE HIM OUT before he gets more of our troops killed!

Mary-Kate Olsen Being Treated for Eating Disorder

***Alright, alright! Who didn’t see this coming?!?

Evening,

I didn’t do anything I originally planned on doing. Seems to be happening to me more, never use to. Not sure if it is a good thing or a bad thing.

I did get a few things organized packing wise, not much. I went to the store.

I spent the majority of my time trying to get all the family tree info down. I have my mom’s family bible & it has some of the tree & family info and I needed to get it back to her.

It was hard, since I wasn’t doing it in the tree format. But I also wanted to get all the interesting info from the papers I have copies of. Problem with some of it was the contrition of some of the info & the writing. Some of the problems with the writing was the handwriting itself & the other was how the form the letters. Do you remember how they use to make cursive r’s? I’m not sure how to describe how they were done, but sometimes they looked like cursive n’s or u’s. So it made the reading very, very difficult.

I’m going to put it in tree format on genealogy.com But this is a start for now. I printed out what I have & plan on asking mom this week about some of the info. I also found some pics my grandma gave me, so I’m going to have mom help me id them….grin

Watched Salem’s Lot part 2……it was intense & good. I’m thinking I may need to get the book and read it again. =)

Peace
Toni