Howdy!

Today, I set up to do PrivateCamZ in the office, it was nice. I can only be in one area for so long. And I think hunching over just to type is what hurts my shoulders/neck area & make me feel icky. I may set up downstairs in the living room, but that means housecamz won’t get to peek in & I do enjoy teasing them with the shows. I’ll just have to move around a bit. It was nice in the office, cuz I didn’t have to “work” to put up everything. It is a pain to get very thing workable in the bedroom everyday, once in a while is cool.

I did have some very hot shows. A few of them were with the 2way video, which was hot. The only problem I had, that even with having the head phones, the sound was not coming through from them, which I would’ve loved. But it was still hot to watch them stroke their cocks…..grin. Some of those shows gave me a hell of a work out……I was hot & sticky by the end. By the time I got off PrivateCamZ I jumped into the shower. =)

I chatted with some of the guys in housecamz. We had a good crowd in there. I do lurk there a lot. And if I notice someone being rude, I may do a boot & run.

Now I know that everyone has their own “tastes” & “types”, cuz I know I have my own “tastes” in body type…..even though they are not the most important……..attitude is the majority. But I really hate it when instead of saying that some one is not their “type” they put them down. Those piss me off. I know I get those just cuz I’m not the skinny type, and I’ve seen some put down an older lady on there, even ones that I can’t find anything wrong with in any sense of fitness. That just gets old. I feel very protective of us everyday girls online, even the ones I don’t care for. It takes a lot to allow yourself to been seen flaws, big butts & all……..and for those who seem to feel it is their job to criticize I would like to see their sorry asses doing it.

Even with those morons, I do have to say that even with all my nervousness & insecurity of going online, it has been great for my self-esteem. I know that it takes all types in the world & that my type is appreciated. =) The way society pushes the “perfect” very unrealistic woman, it does make a lot of girls grow up with self-esteem & eating problems. It is really sad. I think that is why I like the “amateur” “personality” based porn. It shows all the different kind of beauty out there outside of society’s “ideal”.

Those are my ramblings for the day. =)

Peace
Toni

It’s been a couple days since a true update. Feels weird when I don’t, but there really wasn’t much going on. =)

Before I get into yesterday, I did it……….I made up web pages for some personal pics to show. (grin) I’m very pleased with myself. Yes, I know that they are rough & the watermarking isn’t the best……but it was my learning experiment & practice. Just a couple of months ago I could barely watermark an image. (grin) Now I’m forewarning you, some of these pictures are old, so they weren’t the highest quality & some of them were scanned, i.e. the wedding picture. =)

So now I have my KittyKat & Personal Pics. I have linked all the Personal Pics pages to my KittyKat, but haven’t done it the other way around yet. I currently have them both listed in my sidebar of “links”, but may just but it all under Personal Pics just to clean it up more. It was too cluttered. =)

Yesterday, we had 2 house showings………so I didn’t get on for pvt shows until late & then I kept losing connection. It was pissing me off. I think since I had the window opened slightly that someone else’s wireless network was interfering with mine & it was a weak signal so I lost the connection. If I lose connection in PrivateCamZ it has a button to hit to reconnect, well it does that but it doesn’t show me online on the front page for advertising it. I didn’t discover this for a while, so I didn’t get very many shows cuz no one knew I was online. But now I know what to look for. =)

Today, Torn & I did a good hard bike ride. My legs were shaking trying to walk up and down our stairs. Lol I got on PrivateCamZ it was slow today. If it is busy, I thoroughly enjoy myself, when it is not………it can get boring……..so I got off earlier then normal. But that was cool, it gave time for Torn & I to chill out and discuss what we think we should do in the future……moving…….and all that fun stuff.

Never did do that photo shot we are thinking of doing. Lol Maybe tomorrow.

Peace
Toni

This is GREAT!!!

Today I got a surprise in the mail. =) Score went and sent me the July issue of Voluptuous that I’m in & hadn’t even emailed them about it. =) Very cool!! I liked the write up. =) I had emailed them about the XL issue 95# that I found out I was in. So hopefully I’ll be able to see that one soon. =)

I didn’t have too many shows today on PrivateCamZ since I had a CamZ show at 6pm est. But I had one real hot show….grin…..I had a 2 way video show. Normally I have my volume turned off cuz of the feedback with my mic. I had turned it up just a little to here the ping of someone coming into the chat area. Well, during the show I was able to here faint sounds from my pc…….and discovered that it was the guy in the video. So cool!! It was so hot……his cock looked great in the video…….very tasty & mouth watering…..and then being able to hear him breath heavy & grunt as he stroked and came……..DAMN…it was hot as hell….then I had him telling me to fuck him harder……I loved it. The only problem is I couldn’t turn it up the volume to hear him better with out the feedback, but now I’m going to keep my head phones ready. =)

It has been over a week since my last CamZ show so I was in a demanding mood. (grin) Wore the black leather look & fuck-me-boots, even got my whip out. I was in my mistress mood….real demanding…….having them beg for me to let them see my tits…..threatening to spank anyone who started to stroke without my permission……having them tell me what they would do for me if I allowed them to touch me……grin……finished off with a hard intense fuck from Torn….cream pie galore…….dripping out of my pussy everywhere…..it was great. And I had my cam up so housecamz got to see it all. (evil grin)

I was going to jump back on for private shows, but we have a house showing early tomorrow morning. So we need to do some cleaning. I did jump into to housecamz chat. I had a pretty good crowd there, so it was fun.

Got the house cleaned up & litters changed…..so we are about ready for tomorrow. Just need to tear down the housecamz for it. =)

I did get the pics I want for personal pics resized & marked. I have so many I just may do 2-3 pages and link them together. lol

Peace
Toni

Hey everyone!

Torn & I went for a bike ride this morning for exercise. Felt good to do something different. After we got done with that I mowed the back lawn. There was suppose to be scattered showers today & haven’t gotten any. If we don’t get any tonight, I think I’m going to water the lawn tomorrow so we can put some weed/feed down.

I called and got rid of our regular phone. We almost never use it, we always use the cells. So why have it? Took forever to get a person………I was able to put my make up on, put laundry away, get my stuff set up for shows………..it was sad how long I was on hold for. So as of tomorrow we don’t have a land line.

It was slower then usually on PrivateCamZ today. But got some good shows. Some I just had to keep going after they ended the show. Lol Got on after dinner, nothing much going on. So called it a night.

I have some things I want to work on anyway. Planning on putting some personal nonporn pics together on a page for my journal links. I just have too many listed & wanted to condense & clean up. I like the clean & simple look. Doesn’t hurt the eyes & give you a head ache. Lol

On that note, I will be putting my teaser pic behind a cut. I didn’t realize it was that big & would un-align my journal. Lol I hate having to move a page left or right to see the whole thing, so I don’t want to do that to my own journal. =)

Peace
Toni

I know my real last entry was Friday telling you what I did Thursday. =) I hope the pic teaser will help with you missing my babble. Lol

Friday Torn & I got up later then usual. So we didn’t even have breakfast, we went out to lunch. There is an area of town that they have recently redone the last few years & there are new businesses in there. We discovered this new bar that had the greatest atmosphere & really good food & they really loaded up the food. So I think we found a new place to eat at. =)

We had a nice time, checking out the new area & running around the grocery store. =)

I did the PrivateCamZ thing. Had a few shows, usually slow on that day so I did pretty well.

Saturday is the day I spend out at my folks, but decided to go pick up my best friend (she is more like my sister). I’m in the middle of their locations (50 min either direction) & they don’t get to see each other very much. So even though I was on the road a lot, it was a great visit. She & her hubby have 5 kids & they struggle big time, so mom & dad loaded my truck up a ton of stuff for the family. I think they were happy to help her out & loved getting stuff out of the house.

My nieces & nephew took to her real quick & that is not normal for them, it was nice to see. But she has kids herself and there is a bunch of kids family wide so I wasn’t really surprised. They got upset when they thought she was living early.

My folks have more stuff for her but there was no way we could fit it all in the truck. So we’ll have to do a few more trips. I don’t like the long drives, but really looking forward to time together. I’m hoping to be able to bring her kids down next time that would be cool, even though we use the time to give her a break from them. Lol

Today was weird not starting off with a show. Lol So use to doing Sunday shows, I had to keep reminding myself that I didn’t have one. So I got on for some private shows. There was a lot of new folks who had no idea & were rude about the “no nudity in free area” rule….I had to ban a few folks from my room and gave a few heads up to some of the other girls. Idoits. But I did have quite a few hot shows…..grin….some of them I started & the guys had stopped the show and I just keep going. (grin) I was close to cumming & wasn’t going to stop. I had a good day. =)

I need to get off here, when I’m on too long my head starts hurting & makes me feel sick, so it is time. =)

Peace
Toni

Torn did up a few teasers, here is one I think you would like. (grin)

Doesn’t look like I’m waiting for a good fuck? Are you wanting to be the one? (evil grin)

Lets start today with a really cool announcement. Torn’s brother called last night, he and wife had a baby boy Tues night at 7#12oz. (grin) Everyone is doing good & the new “big” brother (about 3) has been talked to that he is suppose to be his protector now. So when a family friend asked to hold the new bundle of joy he told them “you have your own.” OMG! Kids say the funniest things. I wish we could’ve seen & heard that. =)

I decided to go & see my grandmother yesterday. I called dad to find out what room & found out that she was getting moved to the nursing home. So I called the aunt that arranging it & went over to her house. I got there around 11:30am & we waited for the hospital to call to tell us when they were going to transport her. We didn’t hear anything until 1:30 & then they weren’t moving her until 3pm.

The positive about the waiting is I got to visit with my aunt and a couple of my cousins. Wow….time has flown & had a lot of catching up to do on the family stuff. I have forgotten how nice I enjoy spending time with most of my family members. It felt good.

The girls are twins & are 10yrs younger then me, I remember bottle feeding them before we moved to Alaska. Their brother is about 4-6yrs younger then me & when he was little they had him in suits all the time & didn’t look as if he would get very big. Now he is a little taller then me, deep voice & filled out……wow. It was cool, the twins made a point of working around their class schedules just to visit. I think I had some influence on one of them, she still loves GnR & Aerosmith & she got that from me. Lol One of the girls is engaged!!! Showed me a pic of him & she got a cutie……..but I don’t know……..he has better lashes then me so that is going to be a problem. LMAO I can not wait for the wedding. (grin)

My aunt & I went to start moving some of grandma’s stuff into her room & waited for her arrival. This home seems to be more personable & not under staffed. That is usually the biggest problem, is the understaffing. They have folks that care, but are overworked.

The hospital had drugged grandma for the transport, so she was out of it. But she was asking about where she was……….she didn’t want to go back to the other home she was in. So we had to keep reassuring her. One of my other aunts showed up, the stress of everything was showing.

While my aunts were talking to the nurses, I was answering one of their cell phones & just trying to help get things out & straightened. What was good about the timing is by with some of the other family members; I didn’t focus on the negative of the situation and tried to help.

In other ways I felt off balance, but on the drive home I was able to think about it. I haven’t spent much time with my family in about 7-10yrs & I am use to being the “kid”. Well, I’m 30 now & yes I’m adult, but not use to the adult treatment with my ideas & help being treated as such. I’m now on the same “level” with the folks that use to watch me when I was a kid. It is just………I don’t know…..a realization that has finally hit me.

This entry took me forever, so I’m going to stop while I still can. Lol I’m going to get set up in the bedroom & jump on PrivateCamZ, maybe I’ll see you there. (grin)

Peace
Toni